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It’s taken years to get comfortable with vulnerability.
    (I assume it’s taken years, because I’m a slow learner.)

        It’s also likely taken years because vulnerability is scary shit. I’m scared as shit writing this.

Fear, like most things, is motivated by care.
      I fear writing this because I care for my reputation.
      I fear flying because I care for my life.

Vulnerability, like fear, is motivated by care.
      When I am vulnerable, I admit that I care.
       Or, I am vulnerable because I care.

                                    I repeat: That’s scary shit.

                            It’s human reflex to run from scary things because we equate safety with self-preservation.
Maybe there’s truth to that.
But I’m not convinced self-preservation equates to living.