I don’t think I have hobbies anymore. Did you know: if you work eight hours and sleep eight hours, you are left with eight hours to see friends, get gas, do laundry, and eat your fruits and veggies? …and I require more sleep than the average eight… I’ve found myself at home, […]
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I know: I haven’t blogged lately.I forget every summer the challenge of setting personal deadlines, that blogging has to be a choice and a joy and no longer a procrastination or a distraction. I know: This summer is longer than three months.I’m not sure how I’ll react when I don’t have to buy textbooks or move half my belongings […]
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Falling in love is like learning a new language: It requires daily effort.There are late nights and, if you miss one day, it takes twice as long to catch up. There is an entirely new culture to learn, a new way of thinking to practice. It’s always beautiful. And, despite the agonizing nights, infinite frustration, humbling errors, […]
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Even on both sides:Maybe we have the wrong idea of balance. Well, maybe just me. Concerned, making sure each gets exactly six cheerios.What if one needs seven, two needs five? If twelve cheerios are eaten, is that balance enough? [questions, questions] Balance is [maybe] looking at the person, their moment when they declare, “Alas. […]
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I always feel the need to purge when I come home. Out with the old, in with the new I guess. Maybe it’s my way of controlling some little part of The past. A forever desire to simplify. Surfaces empty, walls blank, books in order by genre or color. Changing the spaceSo it’s […]
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Six minutes.. [Tick tick] The theme for today has been: thankfulness. So thankful that experiences can be expressed in the written word. So thankful for friendships that stay across times and continents. So thankful for coffee, in any form, with or without sugar. [Tock five] In my defense, I was writing. […]
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I said my first goodbye today. I forgot how much I hate goodbyes. And how bad I am at them. For the first time, I found myself wondering, why are we allowed to form relationships if they aren’t going to last; they can’t all last. Can they? [Why do I always leave with […]
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What do I want to say?What do I really want to say? I’m not ready for that, either, so I’ll tell you things I don’t mind saying: 1. It [this] is tortuous. I made sort of my own rule (I know, I know, I “learned my lesson” about ghost rules last week) that this wouldn’t […]
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vulnerability: i want to write every day for the rest of my life and i want someone to ask to read it | i want to go to bed when i say i will |i want a pseudonym | i want to just go with it even for a little while | i want to set roots, […]
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Suddenly, I’m not sure anymore. About anything, really.Except, in a merciless irony,I’m not sure. The fusion of desire and reality.. .. or in my case (Type A control freak if you’ve forgotten) .. .. of planned and actual .. Isn’t it rough?I think it’s rough. A tempted this is normal for my situation.Even so, it doesn’t […]
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